As I sat at my desk about to deliver my first academic presentation at work, I felt anxious to actually present but also to just get it over with and be finished.
At the end, when I heard all the positive feedback from my consultants, I was flooded with relief and joy. This presentation was delayed for a whole month and with each delay I grew more and more anxious. As I prepared I questioned myself. Even though I had the outline and observed a few other presentations before mine, I still felt like I had no idea what I was doing. I had been preparing for months and still felt like it wasn’t enough.
As I drove to my next appointment with glee and a sense of accomplishment, I was reminded that the same place I sat to deliver my presentation was the same place I sat and did my final surgery exam for the second time 2 years ago. I failed that exam when I sat at that desk the first time, but this time, I sat there as a junior medical doctor and successfully presented on a clinically relevant topic in the presence of the most senior members of staff in my department.
That revelation blew me away because back then, who would have thought… God will remove the traumatising memory and re-place it with something good, beyond what you can imagine. Receive that for yourself today.
Love & Blessings